EUPHORIA: “In the Realm of Freedom” [Expanded Edition]

Written by Andi Bazaar, Shawn McKenzie, Emir Ash-Shiddiq Tendean, Mark J. Levstein, Yevhn Gertz, Jwan Höfflér Conwall, Pierro-luccà Freimann Schofield and Oliver Tydalé Schofield

“For a long time I undervalued myself, this stunted my growth and compensation for years. Our fears often stand in the way of our own worth, scared of not pleasing, not being liked, looking weird or different all lead to settling for what’s on the table instead of asking for more.”

I see this all the time, people being big time hypocrites.

Calling out racism while being super racist themselves or calling something cultural appropriation while literally utilizing a culture that they weren’t born into, I find this mindset very odd and I feel people should. Reflect more on themselves rather than others.

The problem with imposter syndrome is that what is called imposter syndrome may be depression.

Life is precious, enjoy every moment of your living. Know your worth and value yourself, eventually you reach a point where you don’t care anymore. You know you’re a good person, can’t force people to know your worth, just be real with yourself.

Know your worth, even if it gets lonely.

Know your worth, even if it gets lonely.

know your worth, you deserve better.

Know your worth, it’s all that matters.

Know your worth, know what you truly deserve.

Know your worth and never settle for less.

Know your worth but be true to your ability.

Once you know your worth, no one can make you feel worthless. Know your worth, know the difference between what you’re getting and what you deserve.

An entire sea of water can’t sink a ship, similarly negativity of the world can’t put you down unless you allow it to get inside you. You cannot rely on other people to recognize your full value if you haven’t bought into it yourself, raise your prices today for whatever service you provide “know your worth.”

Stop investing your time to people who does not appreciate and value the efforts you’re giving them, always know your worth. Love yourself, know your worth, accept growth and ppreciate life. These things will help you through any situation.

Never beg for love.

Never beg someone to be with you.

Never beg someone to come back or stay.

Never beg for attention, commitment, affection, time and effort.

You should never have to ask to feel wanted, begging is demanding and degrading. If someone doesn’t willingly give these things, with their arms wide you open, they aren’t worth it. No one, under any circumstances is ever worth begging for.

Know your worth, know when you’ve had enough. Know when to move on from the people who keep ruining your happiness. When you know your worth and what you bring to the table, nobody can try to convince you that you’re any less than. Know your value and stand on it.

I’ve been around long enough to see all the slimy tactics and people trying to get ahead off your hard work. Most people that I’ve worked with have been nothing but fair, but I’ve had plenty of absolute joke offers come my way. You work too hard, get what you deserve.This also doesn’t mean be an asshole to bad offers, or demanding money every chance you get. Every product/brand you represent should align with your values and feel natural as well, I have turned down plenty of deals because I know its not for my community.

If the pandemic hasn’t changed your mind about the real face of capitalism, I pity you for how utterly broken your mind must be and for the mental gymnastics you engage in to cope with the insanity around us.

The, our, your, my children they are the ones suffering. Trying to survive, make sense, cope thru all of this insanity and horrific pandemic and we are not protecting them enough, nor paying attention to what its mentlly doing to them. If you can cope with the insanity of life, you can cope with anything and you seem able to laugh things off. Best way!

“are insanity and its lesser counterpart a product of ones own beliefs or an illusion created by your mind to cope with life’s inadequacies?”

What you think is “hate” directed toward you and your kind is actually contempt for your inability to cope with life, be it embracing your mental insanity, enabling those same people or stealing from others. People who make jokes about the war are just trying to cope with the actual insanity that it proposes. Being ripped from your family and thrusting you into a life threatening scenario, for a war you don’t even agree with. Coping is good, it’s a necessity.

Einstein defined insanity as “doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results.” — If you struggle to cope/deal with situations or feel like the same issues are constantly re-occuring in your life it is because you keep applying the same formula. If you follow a recipe 1000 times the same meal will be cooked 1000 times. If you desire a different outcome to previous times you need to change the process. Otherwise you will continue on this hamster wheel with the same issues coming back over and over.

GROW, ADAPT AND IMPROVE

“Need it be said that it is a breaking point in your life that it is an unassimilable spiritual earthquake not every person can cope with, as a result of which people often slip into insanity?”

The only person at the end is yourself, life is about learning how to deal with your own insanity, to remain sane but if you never learn to cope with it. It will overtake you. Thus far in 2020, I’ve been making a point of “not engaging” on Twitter. If I realise I’ve wound up reading a thread of responses that annoy me, I immediately close it. If someone replies to a retweet and keeps me tagged in their dipshittery I’m much quicker to mute.

I’m not stuffing my fingers in my ears, I’m not blinding myself to important news that’s happening in the world but I’m choosing not to consume or engage with shitty people reacting to it and lemme tell you I’m feelin’ happier. 2020 is the year where we sort our shit out, lads.

Not engaging is the best way to cope with social media insanity and a mantra a lot should take in 2020, if you can’t stop just mute or ignore and get on with your life. Sometimes, it’s the only way to keep the stress down. A lot of the toxic people just don’t let up and keep moving the goalposts when engaged, it ain’t worth it. I’ve been muting and blocking a lot of people like that this year and I’ve been better mentally.

I wish I had that level of self-control, I feel like a social media sadist half the time because I expose myself to things I know will piss me off.

First of all, I just wanna say that my heart hurts and my mental actually down knowing the truth that there are bunch of people at any group activity spreading the hate. I think everyone just forgets “how to treat people” clearly struggling with their mental health and when it comes to me I was like thank you for talking down to me as if I’m dog shit stuck on your shoe. That really made me want to die less.

“I have a chronic mental illness, its where I compulsively put myself down to lift people up and then when I start learning to not do that they use the personal things I told them to make false and hurtful judgements of me and I say sorry.” — Emmanuel Piero-luccá Schofield

Piece of advice for pieces of shit people who treat others with mental health issues the way they do. “You won’t bring me down and you for sure as well won’t bully anyone I know with mental health issues.” — I will defend them and I will defend what I believe in.

So, please be kind x

I’m baffled, I’ve got racists, misogynists, neo-nazis and other assorted bullies coming at me every day with the most horrid insults. I report them and you tell me they’ve done nothing wrong. I’m fed up and annoyed of some people from my generation if you keep bringing people down and being horrible during this hard time even though, they’re the ones trying to spread awarness of mentall health practice what you preach.

I don’t care if you don’t like me, but “how dare you try to bring me down for something beyond my control like my mental health.” — That was lower than low and you’re a scumbag, you deserve everything you have coming to you low life. Its hard to believe in yourself when others try to bring you down and I need to learing my mind because is good for my mental health. Been pretending to be okay, but this is exhausting and breaking down every day is too. Where’s the middle ground?

2024 has been a bully to my mental health, so I ring the damn bell.

“Do you thinks it’s okay to bully and punch down on people with mental health issues and you tried denying me was even mentally illnesd and is now minimizing, deflecting also avoiding responsibility for directing abuse at me. What a piece of shit?”

Seriously how disguting of you to say that you really don’t care about somone feelings or emotions, I bet you lack empathy to even care and what you just said might of affected my mental health but nah. I’m gonna stand strong, can’t let bullies like you bring me down. Twitter isn’t good for my mental health, there are some toxic and mean people who just knows how to bully and harass someone. I’m disappointed. When people have been oppressed and bullied for too long, they snap. I happen to know that is the precise goal of my bullies, that’s why they use mental health stigma loaded slurs so they can say they were right when I break down but I’ve learned some great coping strategies.

I’m not saying I don’t feel like I might break down at times, I’m not saying that it’s easy. I’m just saying that there’s no way they’ll ever turn me into a violent person. I won’t let them bully me into becoming more like they are ever. Violence is not the answer, it never is. Blows my mind, “how people will tweet all this stuff about mental health and how they struggle with it and then straight up bully people and put others down like how do you live with yourself?”

I feel like depression is becoming this aesthetic people take on and its so demeaning to people who have real health problems they have to deal with everyday. A bad day doesn’t mean you have “depression and anxiety” it isn’t some package deal you can exploit for attention. While struggling kids may turn to social media as a cry for help, just know when you speak on that you are representing people who have been hospitalized and lost there friends to suicide.

I’m done interacting with these bullies, I will continue to report their harassment and abuse on Twitter. Moral of the story is: “i’m done letting (some, definitely not all) twitter users bully me into submission.” — To all my lovely followers both on Instagran and Twitter: “create what makes your heart happy, do not let others’ control what you do. do everything with love.”

I’m not going to argue with people over Twitter like I said, I don’t agree with things he has said and done but at the end of the day we are all humans with human emotions. I don’t agree with everything he has said and done, but regardless he’s Mark J. Levstein still a human. I don’t see the point of attacking someone online, he was wrong to bully and a real human being who should be treated with respect.

There’s a difference between “bullying” and “calling people out on their bullshit.” — Also, I will never be as bad as he is, I actually respect people that derserve it. You enabling him to bully makes you just as bad as he is. He should be taken off the platform.

After a full day of being bullied, called “creepy”, lied to and lied about I’m totally done. I’ve shown the facts and anyone with a brain can see they continues to bait me. I’m taking a couple of days off. I’m done arguing with idiots on Twitter, I’m just wasting me breath. These idiots with always want to use lies to bully people and now my watch has ended.

I will never stand idly by while entire groups of people are “hounded” and “harassed” for expressing their true identity. It is unacceptable how many privileged people are bullies or give bullies a pass. Not on my watch. If someone likes me, they like me. If they don’t, they don’t. Recently got rid of someone out of my life that clearly didn’t like me and bullied me and some other people I know. The person was leading a support group community on Twitter I was joining for 7 years, meant to be supportive yet turned out a bully. No need for it, I’m so completely done.

1- There has been a lot of talk about “cancel culture” in the last few years, and more in the last few days. Some would have you believe that putting things right or standing up to bullies and racists and holding them accountable is cancel culture.

2- But no, that is not “cancel culture” holding people accountable for their deeds and words, pushing everyones to change their image by removing hurtful stereotypes is not cancel culture. “That being said, there is a real cancel culture going on out there, one that is far more harmful to our world as a whole.”

You are responsible for every word you say, don’t hurt people and don’t joke with cruel words. You will never imagine how long your words will stay in someone’s mind. Some people will follow you, literally stalk you, tirelessly (copy you) brutally but will never hit that button or utter a word of acknowledgment and why? Because it hurts their big ego and reminds them of their insecurities.

Have you noticed I never mentioned your names, because I still respect you more than you’ve respected me. Even though I’ve despised your actions and you hurt me so badly, every person involved in this bullshit even the people who blocked me without a word. I would have never been so mad and for so long had it not been for that absolute lack of human concern for all the people who hurt me. no one really ever said a word and even helped make it worse to hurt me more and “help” the abuser.

Sorry again for any pain I have caused or anything I did not do to help make this community a better place on Twitter, I will try harder. I am going to go off as soon as possible for a couple of weeks so other voices can be heard. I will be listening and I am easy to reach if the need arises.

If someone needs validation to do the right thing, they were never doing it for the right reasons. Future actions will lead to acceptance and forgiveness, not words. The whole point is that it’s not about them, it’s about the people who were hurt.

If people keep attacking those who apologize and try to improve, people will stop apologizing and trying to improve. You can hold people accountable without being toxic. People are gonna misinterpret and tell things that they have no way of knowing just to cancel you.

Room 305: “The Urban Legend” is my last contribution on Twitter, I have decided to stop writing mine here and moves to other platform on Wattpad. There is so much scope for contribution, all the content for tests can be added to really easily. I hope to get the out soon.

It’s the unfortunate truth but I will not allow this to stop me, I will keep making all the content I want and never stop. I appreciate those who have been supportive and really came forward as a friend, big thanks to everyone on Twitter and Instagram for being so wonderful through it all. I’m going to start making content fully on Wattpad. To express my gratitude, I will never stop making the content that brought me to this point and instead become a semi-relevant. I am grateful for y’all support.

I personally do not like spreading hate online and has never done it myself, I have no choice but to use social media to spread awareness of my current situation. All social media platforms need to take tougher action against those who decide to use them to spread hate because there is no room for racism and it has to stop No one should be allowed or encouraged to use their platform on social media to spread hate, but love. If you don’t like them, no need to brag too much negativity.

Q’s is, “why not use social media to spread light and kindness?” and “why do people use it to spread hate?”

If youre a hater in any kind of way whether it be homophobic, transphobic, racist or any kind of hate please educate yourself. The world has no more room for that morons. Love, acceptance and support is the only thing I tolerate.

SEXUAL HARRASMENT

Being a victim of sexual like Revina, emotional or mental harassment is dreadful and not being able to talk about is worse.

“Listen, empathize, understand and support.”

It makes no sense to me when people say “have mercy on or forgive,” perpetrators of sexual harassment.

“Did the perpetrator (yoga) have mercy first?”

2. “Did they consider the mental health or future of the survivor or victim before violating the victim?” No!

If you can’t be helpful, shut up.

Men can be so disgusting, after regret it a case of sexual harassment against Revina you’ll blatantly deny and say the exact opposite of what actually happened then use the victim’s mental health against her? — ”ROT IN HELL.”

Social media is one of the greatest yet worse things to happen to civilization. On one hand, it allows people to connect with similar interests who would normally never meet in their entire lives, on the other hand it’s become a space for people to be rude for no reason.. etc.

Social media got worse but better at the same time, but honestly the world would be better without it but I think it depends on what part of social media youre in. People are way too sensitive these days and people are getting cancelled from virtually nothing, also nobody knows how to take a joke anymore.

People will say worse but it’s gone better it helped many lives, I’m not even sure tbh content-wise I feel like everything has gone up in quality for sure but general entertainment has dropped for some IMO (there’s still some really good content out there worth subscribing for but not that much as there used to be)

When I started using Twitter I felt like I had to be perfect or I would get cancelled, then I realized that fed social media misrepresentation and the culture of toxic positivity so I stopped. Now I like anyone willing to admit that sometimes they’re a lazy shit, sometimes I am too.

Mindfucker is consumed with social media I can already tell by how many times he has to argue with people on Twitter.

Often the very things we call “lazy” is just a human being wanting to not be productive 100% of the time which is normal, we’ve been fooled into thinking otherwise and it makes zero sense. No other creature is like this.

“being perfect sounds boring, exhausting and too much work.” — Hell, sometimes you need to take a break from things and indulge in some long-overdue laziness.

My anxiety monster tends to roar at me that “I’m not doing enough” when I’m “being lazy.” I have to slay it with the truth that laziness (aka RESTING is NECESSARY). Calm your shorts and watch a show! Also, spending a few days being lazy ay-eff is ok too!

This is so true, e yourself and be positive when you are capable to do so! You’re health is just as important. You don’t have to fake being happy everyday, just let peeps know what’s up and take as much time as you need to get back into things. Way to represent us recreational slobs! I know I’ve recently been struggling with productivity, but the rest I’ve gotten and the time I’ve been able to spend has helped me get back into the spirit of being getting things done well.

Social media platforms are cancelling Independent Media by burying us beneath Corporate Media, negative loud and angry tweets are annoying but try being silently cancelled by “FB Ad Revenue and YouTube Search.” Now, that’s the cancel culture that crushes families and small media.

I miss when social media was more focused on genuine interaction and support. Hate follows, cancel culture and impressions-at-any-cost matter more than everything else lately. It’s not just streamers, it’s companies and brands too. It’s really disappointing.

1/ I’m at a pro authors annual event and as usual I feel slightly on safari among the relatively normals. There is a lot of (intelligent) discussion of cancel culture and wider social media wars but it’s all so, well undesperate and external.

2/ Nobody’s being run out of their digital backyard by 14-year-old discourse warriors or getting piled on for being a homophobe because they stan the WoC character instead of shipping the white boy leads.

3/ There is a lack of people in battered flak jackets with thousand-yard-stares muttering about queerbaiting, destielgate or the five billion brain cells they lost in the Dread Acronym wars of the mid-2000s.

4/ There’s probably someone else here who knows what shipping is, probably because I told them in 2015 or something then again of course one never knows about people but sometimes one is fairly confident.

5/ There is a certain awareness that there are strange, passionately overcommitted types doing strange things in the bowels of the internet somewhere and that this underlies some of the ructions in the ya world in particular.

6/ Well behold my gentle friends, I stand before you with the scars of the acronym wars upon my soul, could you but parse them.

7/ (How glorious it was to welter in that early wave of catastrophic sploodge, unaware that the level of insanity then plumbed was soon to become the default level of interaction on most of the internet.)

8/ But fandom experience is so divorced from the ‘normal’ that there isn’t enough of a shared frame of reference to make it possible to meaningfully refer to the former in the context of the latter. I feel this shouldn’t be the case in 2021, but apparently it is.

9/ I feel possessed of profound secrets that I am concealing from my peers… concealing them in the way you are concealing something when you know that if you crayoned it on a huge sign and ran around screaming still nobody would get it.

10/ Not that I am currently passionately overcommitted to anything, which I am aware of as an increasingly serious problem. One does not feel whole when not passionately overcommitted to something.

I think it’s basically true that “cancel culture” is a phenomenon that’s almost entirely confined to social media, specifically Twitter but really that insignificance reflects at least as poorly on the people who engage in “cancelling” as on those who complain about it. If it doesn’t have any real world consequences then stop doing it!

One of its best points is that cancel culture or its associated patterns, due to its general ineffectiveness against actually powerful people, tends to just backfire and ruin expression and health of oppressed people with no real benefit to them.

• Cancel culture is truly a toxic phenomenon in the age of social media.
• Cancel culture is the stupidest thing to ever exist through social media.
• Social Media is a very dangerous place, people don’t fact check anything. Someone could come up with the most outta pocket story and as long as it rubs people the wrong way cancel culture is on u. We need to do better.
• to be fair i always felt cancel culture was a new term to describe human behavior. Before social media the only people who received criticisms were celebs and public figures, and they had PR firms that helped with their image and do damage control.

i really and truly hope our generation can fix cancel culture and uphold due process in the world of social media. The fact that anybody can be cancelled for even just suggesting fixing a broken system says it all. Thank you for sharing your side of the story José Schenkkan

“Is social media better or worse than it was 10 years ago?”

This is an interesting question because the internet has helped a lot of people but also has helped spread toxicity, but imma pick worse since this is Twitter. It’s worse on Twitter but tbh other parts of the internet has calmed down. It really depends. In a way, the fact that more people uses internet has created really good things:

Accountability

Making money online

Learning from experts around the world

Been more aware of what it’s happening around the world

But it also accentuates the bad in humanity.

I would say it changed, it has gotten both better and worse in different ways even it’s difficult to chose “better” or “worse” for the overall state of social media these days, I feel like there are so many positives and negatives.

Social media has gotten better in the terms of it, being more effective and able to spread more information around to anyone but it has also gotten worse because some of the people who use social media don’t use it wisely, and tend to spread negativity and harass others. Its gotten better in the sense that it helps spread important information which we would not know in our own day to day lives, we can hear the voices of others that are often silenced by the media we are given. Its good, but it’s also bad for the same reasons very toxic.

Vines are non-existent and most influencers aren’t as good as the ones from 10 years ago, not saying all newer influencers are bad but yeah I prefer the older ones and some newer ones. Don’t forgot about the existence of some apps like TikTok and the increasing amount of people that spend their entire lives on some apps like redditors and people who comment under every Twitter thread.

I would argue that what gets called “Cancel Culture” these days is mostly just rich/powerful people facing a level of critical reception that people just couldn’t give before social media, that they would have if they had the opportunity. Its mostly just consequences. Honestly, the way cancel culture is scares me. It scares me in terms that people online may not be able to feel like they can like something without someone attacking them for liking it, also what scares me is the thought of these “ultra” stans in cancel culture in the real world.

I wanna keep emphasizing publicly that though cancel culture often stands for the oppressed that were ignored and smothered prior to social media, cancel culture can also often can ostracize people for simply not representing a leftist view and that latter side of it is unacceptable.

Social media is a half for me, I’m glad people are spreading more awareness of various topics than before but its just “worse” (hard to explain).

I have never been one who likes social media, or thinks that everyone’s (including myself) opinions should be taken seriously and as dogma so it is hard for me to even write this but I’m worried the fragile nature of our world created by cancel culture is killing uniqueness. I no longer care to be that famous anymore in this social media lead society, any-and-everything you say is up for being cancelled if it’s deemed “unlikable”. While there are some benefits to “cancel culture”. I feel that it does more harm than good.

You can’t push for freedom of opinion on social media and then harass and bully those who disagree with you, in that case you’re just saying you only want freedom of opinion if it is your opinion. That’s really not much different than the cancel culture crowd.

Sharing your thoughts and either reasonably disagreeing with someone else’s thoughts or just you know, ignoring and moving on, isn’t hard. People always wanna fight, if you actually want freedom of thought to be accepted you gotta be big enough to do that as well and if seeing opinions that differ from yours triggers you so much then maybe you need to strengthen your own stance. I can’t imagine having a confident stance on something and then getting offended if someone disagrees. Who cares?

People get easily offended these days because of the current culture society has. It’s the poor me, look at me, feel sorry for me, my feelings are hurt, etc. It’s sad that people cannot disagree without being called a name or a label. It’s just sad and pathetic if someone gets but hurt because they don’t agree with you on your opinion, the beauty of opinions is that one persons opinion is never the same for other people. It would boring if everyone agreed.

I see this all the time, people being big time hypocrites.

Calling out racism while being super racist themselves or calling something cultural appropriation while literally utilizing a culture that they weren’t born into. I find this mindset very odd and I feel people should. Reflect more on themselves rather than others, so yes I have done this myself but I try to be aware of it because I do not want to be a hypocrite.

GET YOUR SHIT TOGETHAAA, WHAT THE FWAK!

A SPECIAL THANKS TO:

Andi Bazaar (Writer)

Mark J. Levstein (Co-Editor/Co-writer)

Yevhn Gertz (Director of Photography/Co-writer)

dr Oliver Schofield, MD (Consulting/Co-writer)

dr Seth Gryffen, MD (Consulting)

dr Khaan, MD (Consulting)

Timothée Freimann schofield (Photographed)

Clayton Euridicé Schofield (Editor/Journalist)

Scott Wynné Schofield (Publicist)

Henrie Louis Friedrich (Analyst)

Jwan Höffler Conwall (Art Interior Design/Co-writer)

Hugo-licharré Freimann (Ass Director)

Shot at GQ’s Studios by José Schenkkan and Benjamin Schenkkan Joseph

In appearance by “Shawn McKenzie” (Model/Co-writer)

Thanks to, Irawan Daeng Danuatmadja (Producer), Shawn McKenzie (Production Team/Model/Co-writer) and Emir Ash-Shiddiq Tendean (Co-writer)

In collaboration with The Me: You Can’t See (TMYCSUK)