Accessibility Inclusion
the biggest challenge
"One of the hardest parts about being introverted is the aching in my heart for having lots of people to hang out with, but dealing with the crippling fear of putting myself out there and risking rejection. It’s a constant battle."
Sometimes I love TED talks, but sometimes you see another privileged white dude grinning over some battle to get past their own fears.
"For anyone, often the biggest challenge is dealing with how people unfairly perceive and fear you."
I honestly think if I could get the paranoia that stems from my anxiety under control I would be way more aware of things and able to get back to actually doing stuff regularly. Just that one thing would help. For real, the hardest thing I’ve had to battle most recently (besides physical health problems) is being able to push past my fear/paranoia when dealing with basically anything.
Reminding myself that body insecurity and image issues are a real thing that I’m not alone in the battle and that there is no fear, shame nor guilt in being who I am. Sending love to anyone out here dealing with this like me.
There’s a lot to unpack here so bare with me. Someone feels trapped right now, and this could be physically trapped in an environment or relationship or trapped inside of their mind or unable to communicate their truth.
The reasoning why is going to differ because so many messages are coming in, but for some, they feel trapped out of obligation. Others are trapped because they’re afraid of starting over and being alone. Now for the second group, there seems to be someone else that has caught-
The attention of this masculine (not gender/possible air sign) that has caused them to rethink their current relationship because it’s falling apart, but they for some reason think that they have to stay with this current person (possible fire sign/feminine energy).
I think this masculine is afraid of rejection. I also think they’re afraid of disappointing this other person, but the thing is they’re not ready to be serious and commit. But this masculine wants something traditional. I think ultimately, these people aren’t compatible anymore.
It reminds me of those relationships where the reasoning why you fell in love in the first place ends up being the reason you break up. I think these people were drawn to each other for spiritual lessons, but I don’t think the relationship is necessary anymore although there may still be love but this masculine energy is realizing that the future they want to have is not possible with this feminine.
However, this other person that they are pining for there is so much potential for love, wish fulfillment and happiness here. All they have to do is make a decision and break their silence. Sounds easy, but this masculine is truly torn. They’re frustrated with their current situation, but that doesn’t stop them from being compassionate but at the end of the day, they’re following their intuition.
They’re leaving, it’s just taking them some time to finally give up because they’ve invested so much. They’re hurting in this relationship, but leaving would hurt even more because they don’t want to feel like they wasted their time/energy/love.
This masculine is fighting for this connection, but they don’t need to do that anymore. It’s time to let it go. I want to make it clear that this person has not cheated or made their feelings for this other person apparent in any capacity. They’re extremely loyal.
Even to their detriment but this connection is over sadly. I feel so much heartbreak with this and mental anguish. This is really sad, but it’s going to be okay for everyone involved I feel. Everyone is just getting a major realignment when it comes to their path.
For those who are not dealing with anyone right now, you might be fighting an internal battle when it comes to fighting for your own passions and desires. You’re getting signs from the divine, but you might be ignoring them out of fear.
You gotta work past it, you’re not sleeping right. You probably feel like you’re gonna burst if you don’t finally say something.
So, just tell this person how you feel. It doesn’t have to be this complicated. If you aren’t pursuing someone, someone new is being sent to you. It’s gonna be okay.
“I would like anyone out there fighting the battle dealing with any illness to know when fear knocks on the door answer with faith.”
Sending love and peace to anyone dealing with depression, anxiety, ptsd, and any other mental health issues that they choose to battle with alone for fear of being misunderstood. DM's are always open if someone needs to be heard out or just need someone to talk to.
